Mind the gap

When gaps appear in our lives they can yawn empty as chasms.

Where is the next big thing coming from?

Isn't it time for something new?

Well, maybe, maybe not.

Sometimes the space indicates loss, missing things, opportunities, relationships.

Even a tiny gap in our teeth can feel huge with tongue exploring round, never mind the cavernous emptiness when a loved one leaves or passes away.

Hearts ache and bleed their loss.

I've been living what feels like a lifetime in the gap, in the waiting-room between the here and now and where I want to be. And it hurts. Maybe you're there too.

When dreams fade and reality kicks us in to touch, when all we have is the memory of what we perceive as normality, then it may just be the time to look at the in-between life differently.

Between sickness and healing.

Between pain and purpose.

Between desire and destiny.

Between confusion and understanding.

Between valley and mountaintop.

Between this world and the next.

What if we could see the gap between where we are now and where we want to be as a learning experience?

If we could stop and savour the moment, right here, right now.

Feel the pulse beat of our own hearts slow and steady to match His.

Find grace and find God.

For He's already here.

Arms wide open. Ears attentive. Heart and senses finely tuned. Voice ready to whisper His wisdom.

He is ready to receive us whenever we pause long enough to notice.

Yes, even when we build walls to close those gaps - walls of resentment, ignorance, pain, confusion and shame.

God's love still seeps through the cracks and empty spaces

Even as we rail and resist the dull and the dry and the downright boring.

Even as we race to fill our lives with anything or anyone, spurning the painful places we dare not venture into.

Dreading the dark and quiet of our own lives.

A thousand unanswered questions on our lips and no time to wait for a reply.

He'll fill those in-between spaces and all our empty places if we let Him

Each day offers us such spaces. 

Resting places. Opportunities for openings.

Breathing stations on the way, if only we could see them as such. 

They are potential grace glimmers, soul savers and survival stopgaps.

Life has many slow, mundane moments. Room for pauses. Listening places where wisdom can be imparted.

The ordinary can become extraordinary depending on our attitude.

"We were made to wait, to long for things unseen. This is the place from which dreams and desires come. It's a place of trust - and we find it not in the resolution, but the incompletion" ~ Jeff Goins 'The In-Between:Embracing the Tension Between Now and the Next Big Thing'

My friend, you and I will find that in-between the mess and muddle of life a message to share is developing.

In-between our tests and trials a testimony of God's grace is shaping itself.

Here, as we are now, between living and dying, every moment counts. Nothing is wasted. God uses every crumb.

I'm still struggling to fully embrace the in-between life as hope deferred makes the heart sick and waiting for life to improve or change can feel like an eternity.

But I want to learn to enjoy the in-between existence because it's where most of our learning and growing take place.

Faith is stretched. Trust develops and grows. Patience can have its way in producing perseverance and endurance.

And perhaps we can learn not to mind having gaps in our goal-getting, pit stops in our progress or spaces in our schedule. 

Will you join me in attempting to live well in the waiting-room places of life? 

We can share and encourage one another to stay strong, live mindfully, be present in the moment and maybe enjoy the journey more because of it. 

How do you feel about the pauses in your life?

Have you found ways to savour the moment?

You can read more on embracing silence here

Or think about savouring the moment here

Please feel free to share in the comments below. I love to hear from and reply to you.

The book quoted from above, 'In-between:Embracing the Tension Between Now and The Next Big Thing' is a new one by Jeff Goins, author of 'Wrecked'. 

It's a beautifully written, semi-autobiographical account of learning to live well in the in-between spaces and places of our lives. And in doing so we may even discover our true calling.

Jeff speaks with a great deal of insight, wisdom and wry humour. It's a powerful, pacey read, full of anecdotal experience to back up the helpful information shared.

I highly recommend it as a truly helpful and informative read to encourage us to make the most of our journey of life and faith.

A woman of valour

Procrastination is the thief of time - or so the saying goes. Though there can be benefits in pondering a question until the right answer declares itself.

In seeking to find a God-sized dream story that inspires me, I could have chosen someone from family, community, the great big world out there, or on-line.

Who might be a good role model for my dream of seeking to draw closer to God and discover His specific plan for me creatively and personally?

I have delved deep into the past and settled on my heroine. Her story gripped me when I first heard it and still does. She may be new to some of you, but I think you will be glad to have made acquaintance with her here.

I am introducing Amy Carmichael to you in the form of writing  a personal letter to her:

Dear Amy,

Though we have never met, I have long admired and been inspired by your life. As a child, you yearned for the blue eyes of your brother in place of the brown ones God had seen fit to give you. It led to praying for their colour to change - a prayer that went unanswered. Years later, you saw your brown eyes as a gift. They enabled you to be accepted as an Irish woman missionary in India. I love God's sense of humour, don't you? He takes our weaknesses (real or imagined) and makes them His strengths.

In your early years as part of a mill-owning Protestant family, the oldest of 7 children, you revealed signs of the later spirit and courage you possessed in climbing upon the slate roof of your house - much to the bemusement (and horror no doubt) of your parents. 

As a teenager, you received a clear revelation that our focus should be on the Eternal rather than the temporary and temporal. It was a defining moment that led to you starting up a Sunday School to aid female factory workers to learn about the God you loved. The banner in the church hall became a motto for the rest of your life: 

"That in all things He may have the pre-eminence"

This led you to accept a clear calling on your life to be a missionary, even though it meant leaving behind your home and beloved family, for which you felt responsible since your mother died when you were only 18. The expectations from them, as well as the times you lived in, must have been very hard to press past. But God whispered close,"Go", and it was His voice above all that you heeded. 

How I admire your persistence and courage in obeying His calling upon your life, no matter what it looked like to others.

You started your foray into missionary work in Japan, where you soon adapted yourself by clothing and lifestyle to their customs. Though succumbing to the sickness termed 'Japan Head' scuppered plans to stay more than a year. England received you for a while and then you began your life's mission by going to India.

There, you battled heat, hunger, poverty, sickness and disease, as well as rejection due to your gender and society's expectations of you. Once you discovered the appalling situation of abandoned children, potential victims of infanticide, raised for the sole purpose of becoming Temple prostitutes, you determined to rescue them from their fate.

In setting up the Dohnavur Fellowship you had a home, refuge and safe place in which to welcome, love, raise, educate and spiritually nurture these precious souls. This grew beyond your wildest dreams to become an Internationally recognised, supported and acclaimed organisation. 

As their 'Amma' - Mother - you provided all that was lacking in their lives

A place where all are welcomed with love and understanding, each new child dedicated to the Lord in prayer. Your goal - to lead each one to their Saviour. In time, a hospital, House of Prayer, workshops and other facilities appeared on the mushrooming site. 

Housemothers  and children leaving the House of Prayer after Sunday Service

I'm so pleased that our church had and still does have links and input to the Dohnavur Fellowship. We have sent a missionary nurse to work there in the past and currently have someone on the board of trustees and others who input the Education, Music Therapy and Information Technology areas of the development.

Children at break in Jeevalia School

There is so much about your life, courage, commitment, dedication to God's calling, determination to press past obstacles in your way, love for our Saviour and tireless pursuit of your God-sized dream that inspires me.

But one thing impacts me most of all in a personal way.

You suffered from neuralgia and knew what it was to feel weak, achy and be confined to bed for periods at a time - similar to me with M.E and Fibromyalgia. Yet this did not deter you from becoming a missionary. Then you had an accident in which you were critically injured and remained so for the rest of your life. For 20 years you endured being seriously incapacitated, bedridden and in constant pain. 

"Let us not be surprised when we have to face difficulties. When the wind blows hard on a tree, the roots stretch and grow the stronger. Let it be so for us. Let us not be weaklings, yielding to every wind that blows, but strong in spirit to resist" ~ Amy Carmichael

Though you longed to push on and do so much, you heeded God saying, in essence, that while you couldn't do This, you could do That. How I wish I could live with the same equanimity  you showed to your trials with my own physical weakness and pain.

Those trials birthed something beautiful. Some of your greatest writing on suffering and the mercy of the cross came from bondage to your bedroom. You surrendered graciously to the new role as powerful letters, books and poems flowed from a heart open to receive whatever God had in store for her.

Amy Carmichael's room and garden view

How to sum up a life well-lived in pursuit of God's dream for her?

So much more could be said.

These are the things I am learning from your example, Amy:

• Courage 
• Patience 
• Tenacity
• A deep abiding love for God and others
• Ability to adapt to changing circumstances
• Seeking to follow wherever God leads
• Being creative and productive no matter what

I salute you, Amy Carmichael, Eshet Chayil: Woman of Valour, the last word belongs to you:

"You can always give without loving, but you can never love without giving" ~ Amy Carmichael

Resources:
Photo credit: Dohnavur Fellowship - by courtesy of Ralph Manning
'Amma' - The Story of Amy Carmichael and The Dohnavur Fellowship video Distributed by Evangelical Films ©2001TheDonhavurFellowship
Wikipedia
Christian Voice Heroes of Faith Series

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